Sunday, May 29, 2005
French film festival
French Film Festival is back again, much more expensive this time but I think I'll be there anyway. Craving for some cultural shock
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
U can c the moon from Dubai 2
I hate starting my post with apologies but here it goes: I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for not being understanding and emotionally available as a sister for you,
I'm sorry for snooping around your stuff sometimes (but not always),
I'm sorry that I haven't stood down long enough to have a normal conversation with you
I'm sorry for still being mad at you over the biggest (hopefully not anymore) mistake you've made
I'm sorry for not wanting to be close to you
I'm sorry for not hugging back when you embraced me
I'm sorry for not sending you off at the airport
Now that you're so far away (yet so near), I'm able to be a little off guard and tell you what I have in mind: I don't like being a sucker in life and neither do you; I hate the fact that you never wanted to talk about that incident and instead, keeping things all to yourself; I'm frustrated that you'd rather chat with some stranger half way around the world and tell them intimate frustrations hidden in your heart, maybe the way I'm withdrawing myself from you has something to do with it but everything that has happened do have its cause and consequences and I hate going back and count on every detail just to prove that either you or I would be right....
The bottom line is, we're still sisters and I'm never going to discourage you from achieving your goals, though you should learn to at least consider how other's feel when it comes to major decision in life because once you shun people, it's hard to make them feel alright around you anymore.
Perhaps what you're doing now is like a form of redemption, I don't know, but if you want us, people who cared about you, to get over the negative things in the past, you must first get over your own guilt. It's always been the driving force that makes you do the things that you dislike and take irrational risks, you need to understand that I know my role and position in this family and I don't want you to feel sorry about anything.
I might have complaint during the downs in life but I did it in my own little corner, learning to do less of those and only focus on the enlightenment and joy out of what I do in my own life. If I have to seek spiritual solace and guidance to lead my life, or talk to someone just to get over the grievances in life, so let it be, though I've learnt more on depending on my own for a lot of things. So when I keep myself constantly busy with work, it is just a way to cope with the endurance of life. Try to understand, I don't hate you. With your every attempt to overcome any endeavor, I've always wished for your triumphant success, as any sane and caring sister would do. (Believe me, after all that has happened here, it's a great deal of milestone to be sane). Work hard, enjoy life, stay down to earth and make yourself feel mentally and emotionally healed again so we can pick up from where we have left before, and I promise you that I'll strive my very best keep my post here strong and stable, with everything staying intact. Don't you worry too much.
One last thing, I'm sorry for making you cry...
I'm sorry for not being understanding and emotionally available as a sister for you,
I'm sorry for snooping around your stuff sometimes (but not always),
I'm sorry that I haven't stood down long enough to have a normal conversation with you
I'm sorry for still being mad at you over the biggest (hopefully not anymore) mistake you've made
I'm sorry for not wanting to be close to you
I'm sorry for not hugging back when you embraced me
I'm sorry for not sending you off at the airport
Now that you're so far away (yet so near), I'm able to be a little off guard and tell you what I have in mind: I don't like being a sucker in life and neither do you; I hate the fact that you never wanted to talk about that incident and instead, keeping things all to yourself; I'm frustrated that you'd rather chat with some stranger half way around the world and tell them intimate frustrations hidden in your heart, maybe the way I'm withdrawing myself from you has something to do with it but everything that has happened do have its cause and consequences and I hate going back and count on every detail just to prove that either you or I would be right....
The bottom line is, we're still sisters and I'm never going to discourage you from achieving your goals, though you should learn to at least consider how other's feel when it comes to major decision in life because once you shun people, it's hard to make them feel alright around you anymore.
Perhaps what you're doing now is like a form of redemption, I don't know, but if you want us, people who cared about you, to get over the negative things in the past, you must first get over your own guilt. It's always been the driving force that makes you do the things that you dislike and take irrational risks, you need to understand that I know my role and position in this family and I don't want you to feel sorry about anything.
I might have complaint during the downs in life but I did it in my own little corner, learning to do less of those and only focus on the enlightenment and joy out of what I do in my own life. If I have to seek spiritual solace and guidance to lead my life, or talk to someone just to get over the grievances in life, so let it be, though I've learnt more on depending on my own for a lot of things. So when I keep myself constantly busy with work, it is just a way to cope with the endurance of life. Try to understand, I don't hate you. With your every attempt to overcome any endeavor, I've always wished for your triumphant success, as any sane and caring sister would do. (Believe me, after all that has happened here, it's a great deal of milestone to be sane). Work hard, enjoy life, stay down to earth and make yourself feel mentally and emotionally healed again so we can pick up from where we have left before, and I promise you that I'll strive my very best keep my post here strong and stable, with everything staying intact. Don't you worry too much.
One last thing, I'm sorry for making you cry...
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Movies 2004
Lost in Translation ˜˜˜˜˜
reminds me of everything and everyone I've encountered in Japan
Van Helsing ˜˜˜
monster rojak
Super Sapiens ˜˜˜
makes me want to bury myself in Marvel comic books like the good old days again
Shrek 2 ˜˜˜˜˜
movie sequels and fairy tales no longer look the same to me anymore
Troy ˜˜˜˜
vulnerable Brad in skirt, whoa whee
Collateral ˜˜˜˜˜
psychotic hitman = Tom Cruise on a killing spree, now that's different
The Village ˜˜˜˜˜
I knew it would end that way! I knew it!
I, Robot ˜˜˜˜
feels like watching a sci fi cult movie in Hollywood action package
Fahrenheit 9/11 ˜˜˜˜˜
sigh, there goes my hope of world peace down into the toilet
Big Fish ˜˜˜˜˜
extraordinary imagination
Apres Vous (After You) ˜˜˜˜˜
funny, in a depressing manner
Fanfan la Tulipe ˜˜
blah, French medieval joke
A la Folie...Pas Du Tout (He Loves Me He Loves Me Not) ˜˜˜˜˜
flirt, insanity, creepy
Les Invasions barbares (The Barbarian Invasion) ˜˜˜˜˜
intrigued by the intellectual depiction of the current world, deliberate or not, it made me cry like a baby at the end of the movie
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban ˜˜˜˜˜
watched it thrice, darkness and hormones filling up the air
Mean Girls ˜˜˜˜
kind of like Clueless, the authentic, Saturday-Night-Live-humoured and updated version
Spiderman 2 ˜˜˜˜˜
Toby as spidey is perfect. looking forward to the next one
The Bourne supremacy ˜˜˜˜
maybe people are getting sick of martini, shaken, not stirred type of agent, add in a little vulnerability, shaken with a killer instinct and stirred with a little bit of amnesia, that'll do...
Shark Tales ˜˜
not into the Italian mobster theme
The Terminal ˜˜˜˜˜
warmth, hope, typical tale of losing a country when you're out of the country.. plus Luna Diego rocks
The Incredibles ˜˜˜˜˜
feel good kind of movie, pixar did it again!
reminds me of everything and everyone I've encountered in Japan
Van Helsing ˜˜˜
monster rojak
Super Sapiens ˜˜˜
makes me want to bury myself in Marvel comic books like the good old days again
Shrek 2 ˜˜˜˜˜
movie sequels and fairy tales no longer look the same to me anymore
Troy ˜˜˜˜
vulnerable Brad in skirt, whoa whee
Collateral ˜˜˜˜˜
psychotic hitman = Tom Cruise on a killing spree, now that's different
The Village ˜˜˜˜˜
I knew it would end that way! I knew it!
I, Robot ˜˜˜˜
feels like watching a sci fi cult movie in Hollywood action package
Fahrenheit 9/11 ˜˜˜˜˜
sigh, there goes my hope of world peace down into the toilet
Big Fish ˜˜˜˜˜
extraordinary imagination
Apres Vous (After You) ˜˜˜˜˜
funny, in a depressing manner
Fanfan la Tulipe ˜˜
blah, French medieval joke
A la Folie...Pas Du Tout (He Loves Me He Loves Me Not) ˜˜˜˜˜
flirt, insanity, creepy
Les Invasions barbares (The Barbarian Invasion) ˜˜˜˜˜
intrigued by the intellectual depiction of the current world, deliberate or not, it made me cry like a baby at the end of the movie
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban ˜˜˜˜˜
watched it thrice, darkness and hormones filling up the air
Mean Girls ˜˜˜˜
kind of like Clueless, the authentic, Saturday-Night-Live-humoured and updated version
Spiderman 2 ˜˜˜˜˜
Toby as spidey is perfect. looking forward to the next one
The Bourne supremacy ˜˜˜˜
maybe people are getting sick of martini, shaken, not stirred type of agent, add in a little vulnerability, shaken with a killer instinct and stirred with a little bit of amnesia, that'll do...
Shark Tales ˜˜
not into the Italian mobster theme
The Terminal ˜˜˜˜˜
warmth, hope, typical tale of losing a country when you're out of the country.. plus Luna Diego rocks
The Incredibles ˜˜˜˜˜
feel good kind of movie, pixar did it again!
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